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ender

2009-07-28T20:34:00.000-07:00

friends/enemies/frenemies,i've moved here.

minerva

2008-07-17T15:53:00.000-07:00

so i sit here with so many things on my mind but without the ability to put it all down in words.
a tonne of thoughts go through my mind.

the summer draws to an end and its been a life-changing one.
i may not realize it now, but in the long run, i'll look back and say "yes,2008 was one hell of a summer."

not just because of the great times i've had and the amazing people i've met.
no.
its because my horizons have been broadened and my perspectives have been changed.

my thought process is a very different one now then it was before i came to germany.
i've figured out how different kinds of people think and react to situations,and this will hold me in good stead in the future for sure.

escaping from the comfort zone of singapore and being thrown into a new independent lifestyle where i have to do everything for myself has ensured that i've learnt more in these past few weeks than i would have in a few years in singapore.

see the thing is,in singapore, we do our thing and we're happy with it.
we think in the short term, fretting over our grades and what job we'll end up in and what car we want in the future and etc etc.

but we fail to appreciate the little things.

the other day we cycled along the rhine river and sat down just to view the beauty that is nature.

who has the time to even do that in singapore nowadays?
the never ending rat race is so constant that we dont reflect on our lives and the world we live in enough.
we're all swept up and away in the rush that is our lives.

i may be ranting away but the gist of what i have to say is that every once in a while,
a change of environment is fundamental so one can take a step back and see where he is headed and whether or not the environment that he has taken a break from, really is where he belongs.
and thats what i've really figured out by being here in germany.
whether or not im in the right place.

minerva is the goddess of knowledge. (and a kickass deftones song)
may she grant me a sufficient amount of it so i can make good decisions in the months to come.

some of the highlights of my trip:

euro 2008! viva espana
rage against the machine concert!
death cab for cutie concert!
the never-ending chillout sessions in the kitchen with the ebs people
copenhagen and its madness
basel and its insanity
the vineyards of the rheingau
the football and floorball sessions
unexpected phone calls from friends in singapore
the pizza shop next to the apartment
so many more that ill have to continue it some other time.

much love to all those who matter.
im out.

the sound of settling

2008-07-06T16:20:00.000-07:00

Guten tag from germany

The boy wonder is currently biding his time in what can be termed an ‘idyllic german village’.
Or hell.
Seriously, there is nothing to do here!
Shops close at 6, food is mostly pork, and the general population is mainly made up of 75 year old geriatrics.
Maybe I should learn to sew or play bingo

Speaking of which, I have been pickng up domestic skills here and there
Ive learnt how to do my own laundry, how to cook a mean pasta, how to iron (not my forte), how to put clothes out for drying
These will all come in handy when I start work as domestic help I presume.

On a more serious note, the world is so so so much bigger than the tiny dot that is Singapore. One can only realize this when they spend a proper amount of time outside of Singapore. So many people to meet, so many sights to see! The rat-race in Singapore tends to make us concentrate simply on the smaller picture, making our outlook very myopic.

German is such a harsh language. The other day, an old lady was saying excuse me, and it sounded to me like she was saying “I want to eat you.” In a peculiarly deep voice as well. Very worrying these germans.
Ich liebe dich.
Does that sound remotely romantic?
That means I love you btw.
It sounds like a food dish at a restaurant owned by Vikings.
i also find it amusing how the word for 'bye' is 'tschus'.
well the word is not really funny, compared to the way it is said.
its pronounced 'tchooooooooooooos' in a sing-song manner
its just funny to see all these huge german men at the bars, after eating their huge bratwursts and drinking gargantuan mugs of beer, go 'tchooooooooooooos' to each other in a slightly high pitch girly singsong manner.
very odd.

The summer has been amazing, I’ve met some extraordinary people. And watching three matches at Euro 2008, including the final, was something I never dreamt would happen.
Honestly, being in the stadium and watching the team I support win in the final of such a major tournament was simply a breath-taking experience.

Of course, bing away from friends and family is not cool, and those who matter know I miss them loads, via my random emails and smses.
Ah well, im back in august so it really isn’t that long.

Aite that’s it for now, tomorrow we’re gonna try and get temporary employment at the vineyards.
I kid you not.
Such is the boredom here.
Ill try and update more often.
Given I have nothing to do!

Love to those who matter.
im out.

right where it belongs

2008-04-21T10:43:00.000-07:00

what if everything around you,
isnt quite as it seems?
what if all the world you think you know,
is an elaborate dream?

[trent reznor]
nine inch nails

o valencia!

2008-03-23T13:47:00.000-07:00

its been an interesting few weeks
been meeting and catching up with lots of people
parties have happened
clubs have been frequented
drinks have been had
jokes have been made

its good to know what there are some friends who will stick with you through thick and thin.
i know i dont say it enough,
but im honestly thankful for the bunch of friends i have.

its just nice to know that someone always has my back.
someone wants to cheer me up when im in the doldrums.
someone is always there to give me much needed advice.

schools really picked up pace.
honestly,everyday,theres some assignment due,or some presentation to be made.
its awesome in the sense that i can feel the term is going to end soon.
and with it comes the summer.
im going to be in Germany for the summer.
the european business school, to be exact.
lookin forward to it,with the added incentive of catching Euro 2008.

life is pretty okay at the moment.
lets hope it doesnt get worse.

its 5am.
i just finished schoolwork.
how sad is that.
aite gotta sleep.
see all of you around!

much love to all those who matter.
you know exactly who you are.
im out.

p.s. the title of this post is both an ode to my beloved valencia fc (who just beat real madrid 4 days after beating barcelona) and a cool song by the Decemberists.

ponder as you would with only a soul

2008-03-11T12:52:00.000-07:00

in the grand scheme of things,
where do we fit in?

in the immensity of creation,
timeless as it is vast,
what are we, if not insignificant?

the endless expanse of the universe,
coupled with the infinite realm of the mind,
leaves us lost.

lost not because we lack a purpose,
but because our purpose is paltry.

obsession over the minuscule plane that we inhabit
leads us to lose perspective

emotions and feelings
cloud our manipulated, molded minds

the pursuit of pleasure
satisfies nothing.
She is a temptress, a mirage
in a desert created for us, by us.

gratification
is a god we shamelessly worship

we bleed our essence
and sell our insides.
for gods who are built of clay.

artificial deities
grip our souls
keep us in line.
while we smile

a smile carved on our faces
by the knife of conformity

solace is sought
in the hearts of others
while we hold ours
beating and bleeding
in our hands

we seek to live out eternity
in the comfort of company
with the approval of our
flawed gods

but what is our eternity
if not a fleeting moment.
a teardrop of rain
that falls on the leaf of existence
and is dried up instantly
by the cruelty that is the sun.

open your eyes

2008-02-11T10:51:00.000-08:00

schools in full swing
its a semester where i've had it relatively good.
im liking the courses i take,except for one.
making new friends,catching up with old ones.
weekends have been welcome breaks from the monotony of school.

when im bored,i watch the bevy of shows ive gotten.
some of those on my must-watch list are:

weeds
how i met your mother
californication
and...
the black donnellys

charting the lives of four irish brothers,its a brilliant show thats got me hooked.
combining violence with values,its a more polished and realistic version of the sopranos.
think entourage + sopranos.
or not.
whatever the case,its a brilliant show.
its gotten me inspired as well.
no more backing down from anything.
and no more worrying.
life is far too short to be worrying continuously about everything.

i once asked a really good friend,
"when are you truly happy?like truly truly happy,not just kinda happy or kinda enjoying yourself"
ask yourself that and you'll be surprised by the answers.
forgo the formalities and giving yourself the typical answers that you expect yourself to say.
dig deeper and find out.
when,doing what,with who or alone,do you get the most joy?
find it.
and go do it.

on another note,the above-mentioned friend told me something that struck me as poignant.
"if you're really meant to be with someone,inevitably,you're gonna be with that person."
and that basically answers one of life's toughest questions.
so its all good.
que sera sera,whatever will be,will be.

thats about it for today.
love to all those who matter.
you know who you are.
im out.

the departed

2008-01-31T20:28:00.000-08:00

its been a year.
seng liang,we all miss you loads.
your nonchalant smile,
your carefree ways.
your supreme dribbling skills,
your impersonation of frank lampard.

honestly,i still cant believe youre not around.
how did a year fly by so fast?
it was jut the other day in the canteen,
where we were talking about life and girls and football.
then i got the call in the morning.
and that was it.
you were gone.
how can someone so young have his life ripped from him?

life is short.
we could all do without the unnecessary complications and baggage.
but then again,without it all,it wouldn't be life.

whatever the case,seng,i miss you mate.
heres to you.

hiatus

2008-01-08T11:50:00.000-08:00

hang in there people

ill be back soon enough

into the hollow

2007-12-23T21:24:00.000-08:00

au revoir,adieu,good night.
i’m too wrong,
to get right.
but i cant wait forever.
i’ve always been alone
a fool believes he’s clever.

be back 3rd jan.
be good,people.
im out.

untitled

2007-12-09T13:21:00.000-08:00

and all of your ways in all your thunder,
got me in a haze runnin' for cover,
where we gonna go from here,
where we gonna go from here.
the back of your eyes look like my mothers
when we talk you're like my brother,
where we gonna go from here,
where we gonna go from here.

[mat kearney - where we gonna go from here]

unholy delivery surcharge

2007-11-29T12:08:00.000-08:00

4 am.
the boy wonder's stomach was growling.
i must be replenished!
food i require!
if i dont eat, how will i study!?

so i did what most of us do when we're starving at an ungodly hour.
order some mcdonalds!

so i chose my burger online.
a sausage mcmuffin, that will suffice.
mmm i drooled thinking about it.
a nifty $2.50 should be worth it.

then i make the call
"hi welcome to mcdonalds!"
"we love your money!"
"by the way our delivery surcharge is...THREE DOLLARS!"
great.
why don't i just give you my wallet?

they used to have free deliveries.
then it became $2.
now its $3!
and they dont even mention it on their website.
its hidden somewhere.
i dont see the burger prices dropping?

how can the delivery surcharge be MORE than the burger price!
HOW!
you might say, "oh im sure they pay that money to the delivery boys..."
my friend, you are dreaming.
i know these delivery boys.
they earn a pittance.
the money feeds RONALD.
and no, not ronald tan or ronald d'souza.
the ronald mcdonald.
the clown of my nightmares.

so i abandoned all plans of mcdonalds.
and did the next best thing.
i ate some toothpaste.
i joke.
i couldn't bring myself to order.
NO.
no capitalists who jack up prices as they wish!
no!

so i just ate some leftovers from the fridge.
i feel satisfied.
not with the food.
but with my resistance.

getting away with murder

2007-11-26T22:45:00.000-08:00

as a finance major at nus,
im used to boring numbers and graphs.
i often ask myself,
what makes the finance industry so interesting?
why am i learning these inane ratios and evaluation methods?
one of my professors mentioned that to see how the finance world actually works,
there is 1 definitive movie that I should watch.
that movie is wall street.

directed by oliver stone,
the 1987 movie may look primitive
in terms of the technology shown to be used by the stockbrokers,
the music and hair may be kitschy,
but believe me,
gordon gecko is a character that accurately reflects the top players in the finance industry.
cutthroat.
ruthless.
scheming.
insanely driven and motivated.
hes a joy to watch.

michael douglas did such a good job portraying him that he won the oscar for Best Leading Actor, which is ironic given his limited screen time,
and that technically, he was the villain.

still not convinced that gecko is an awesome character?
check out the speech he gives to shareholders of a company (Teldar) he is attempting to buy out.

The point is, ladies and gentlemen, that: Greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right; greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms, greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge — has marked the upward surge of mankind and greed, you mark my words — will not only save Teldar Paper but that other malfunctioning corporation called the USA.

His deliverance of the speech was impeccable and his message resonated long after he left the screen.
hats off.

i dont know if i have it in me to ever emulate gecko,
nor do i know if i ever want to.
but there are very few professions and industries where such people can thrive and succeed.
the finance and banking industry is a prime suspect.

in other news,
heres a clip from our euro-trip of 2006.
it is awesome.

aite thats it for now.
2 more papers to go,
then its party central.

love to all those who matter.
im out.

goodbye englands roses

2007-11-22T10:17:00.000-08:00

Croatia

England

What a beautiful scoreline.
Poor overpaid English players.
Awww
Boo hoo.
Didn’t make it to Euro 2008 did you?
Poor things
Need your WAGs to cuddle you don’t you?
Want a blanket and a bolster and some bottled milk?

The Croatians gave the English a solid lesson in football.
Yes you heard that right.
Overpaid.
Over confident.
Lacking in skill and ideas.

Just who does England think it is?
Nobody can take anything for granted in the world today.
And that includes a place in a major tourney, England.

The English media loves building the team up to be a team of superheroes.
Ohhh steven gerrard
Ooooh frank lampard
Every player was outclassed by a Croatian player who knew his role.
The croats knew what they had to do.

They knew exactly what the game plan was, and stuck to it.

The only players, in my opinion, to come out with any credit,
were crouch and beckham.
I hate beckham, but he really gave it a go.
And lets not blame Carson entirely.
Im willing to bet robinson would’ve let that shot in as well.

Why did England have that useless friendly with Austria,
which resulted in owen getting injured?
I think owen and crouch would’ve been a good option.
4-4-2!
Why 4-5-1?

Honestly, I was cheering on the croats.
Why?
Simply because England need to take a break and have a long hard look at themselves.
The egotistical over-paid players that make up the team need to be sorted out.
Look at the names in the under-21 side.
Agbonlahor.Walcott.Derbyshire.Taylor.Hart.Johnson.
All these youngsters will be stars of the future.
Why not give them a run-out.
Since the current squad obviously cant make it.

If jose mourinho takes the job,
England are in good shape.
mcclaren was a disaster.
but an easy scapegoat
For under-performing players

The entire Croatian team’s salary
Is probably equivalent to
the sum of the salaries of the English substitute’s bench.

but what annoys me the most
about England
Is their self-righteousness
They feel that they have a god-given right
To be at each tournament.
Not that they do anything at these tournaments,
not since 1966 at least.

The English public buy into their own media frenzy,
Believing that their players are demi-gods.
Its about time
For some self reflection.

On another note,
I love my blackberry.
It is so fine.
Yum.

Aite gotta go and get some work done.
Exams round the corner.

Much love to all those who matter.
Especially the lovely and hot girlfriend.
im out.

closing time

2007-10-28T13:16:00.000-07:00

why would local kids wear hoodies in burning hot weather?
i mean, fair enough, you wanna wear the hoodie as a sweater (yes tazkiah), but do you really need
to put on the hood?
are we living in siberia?
stop trying to copy everything you see on mtv, douchebags (calvin, this is how you spell it)

cesc fabregas is only 20.
what is he doing being the best player in the premier league?
the kid is pure quality.
liverpool were struggling to cope with arsenal's exceptional movement.
this is the gunners season, although united and chelsea are gonna push em to the hilt.
liverpool has too many internal problems to mount a serious challenge.

i miss playing football.
its like a piece of me is missing,
i feel incomplete.

i watched superbad.
it was pretty funny, but i expected better.
some of the jokes were flat.
the same old ploy of high school kids trying to get laid is getting a tad boring.

ever had a girl sit in front of you in the theater,
and because she doesnt get any of the jokes,
but heard the movie was funny,
she laughs at the most odd parts?
like during a sad scene, she guffaws?
i had such a woman in front of me during superbad.
it was annoying.
welcome to my life.

school is finishing up.
deadlines are everywhere!
like herpes!!!

aite thats all
much love to those who matter
especially the gf.
im out.

let it die

2007-10-15T11:39:00.000-07:00

so im done with the big Investment Analysis exam
spent everyday since last Thursday studying for it.
including good old hari raya.
Thanks nus!
anything else?
how bout an exam on dec 31 at 11pm?
Sounds good?

Anywho,
finance is a killer.
Killer of a subject.
Give me marketing, sociology, philosophy, management…
anything else.
Ah but then again im majoring in finance.
Good job, boy wonder.
Your superpower must be to be a complete retard.

If you guys can, get your hands on the following albums:

foo fighters – Echoes Silence Patience and Grace

kanye west – Graduation

50 cent – Curtis

definitely worth a listen.

how about this for a goal?

taking some time off
to regroup and refresh.

love to all those who matter.
im out.

kick push

2007-10-07T12:00:00.000-07:00

"and so they kick, push,
kick, push,
kick, push,
kick, push,
coast
and away they rolled"

[lupe fiasco - kick push]

that pretty much says just how i feel right now.
i really do miss skateboarding.
honestly.
thanks to my dodgy knee, thats gone as well.
along with football.
thanks.

anywhoo,
school is in full swing.
mid-terms here and there,
projects/meetings/deadlines dominating my calendar.

as i sat in the library to study on a lovely saturday afternoon(yes.kill me.)
i hunched over a couple of textbooks, trying to absorb useless information.
there were so many pertinent thoughts going thru my head.

if you put a bunch of hermit crabs together,
are they still hermit crabs?

why are the warning pictures on the cigarette boxes so exaggerated?
how come ive never seen the dude who has his entire lung resting on his neck?
and does he use it as a pick up line?
"hey yeah im the dude from the marlboro boxes
recognize my lung on the side of my neck?
it 'breathes' for you, honey."

is there really a difference between the $2 fashionista-accessory red bull from belgium and the $0.50 gold red bull from thailand (aka kratangdinensawadikappen)?

is t-pain actually the first black robot?

is kanye west actually a preppy white man?

is it mandatory for emo bands to have awesomely long song titles?
"hi this is our new single, which i composed while i was bleeding from cutting my wrists and sniffing some glue...its called:
'i like to cry and make my mascara run and mess up my uneven fringe and cry after that about my messed up fringe and face'
hope you guys like it!
vote for it on TRL yeah yeah woo!"

yeah thats what went thru my head.
all those thoughts in 2 seconds flat.
that is my super power.
thinking of rubbish while 'studying'.

if i had 2 phrases to summarize my school,
it would be:
cap scores
internships

thats all.
nothing else is taught or matters in my school.
nothing.
everything revolves around these 2 concepts.
everyone is obsessed with these 2 things.
im not even exaggerating.

it absolutely negates the experience that university is supposed to be,
and undermines any genuine intentions a student might harbour
to broaden his perspectives and horizons.
honestly, theres no 'pursuit of knowledge' etc etc
all one big marketing campaign,
masquerading as a holistic university experience.
behind the facade is a sad, empty little school.
a school that has bought into its own propaganda,
and has absolutely lost sight of the goal
that a university should aim to achieve and maintain.
that of 'educating' the students.
we're losing out to other schools, to other faculties.
because of this obsession with image and with how we project ourselves.
and how we can secure that prized internship.
and how we can score the best grades with the least effort on the easiest modules.
its a sad situation.
one that many are not aware of.
due to the hard work put in,
to gloss over all the school's inadequacies,
and paper up over all the cracks in its academic and intellectual foundations.

sorry bout the rant.
had to get it out of my system.
and yes you may ask
"why are you still there?"
people make mistakes.
theres no guarantee that the other business schools are any better.
maybe its this country.

ok thats it for now.
much love to all those who matter.
especially le gf. (hope youre doing better.kiss)
im out.

return of the mac

2007-09-30T11:52:00.000-07:00

so im back
1 week chillin' out in bangladesh was a much needed respite
yes bangladesh
its a nice place, contrary to what you may believe
its also dvd heaven.
i kid you not.
i bought 200 dvds.
some of the stuff i got:
entire guy ritchie collection
entire tarantino collection
all the family guy seasons
loadsa underground british films
all the blackadder seasons
and much much more.
good times beckon.

october is gonna be a hectic month,
jam packed with deadlines and tests.
wish me luck.
keep checkin for updates,
ill try and do my part.

much love to all those who matter.
especially the gf, who i missed tonnes.
im out.

just like you imagined

2007-09-19T11:26:00.000-07:00

The other day, in one of my tutorials,
this group was doing a presentation on Barbie.
As an intro to their presentation,
they used a clip from YouTube,
where they found a small girl who they thought looked and acted a lot like Barbie.

So they played the clip.
It was some young girl, probably 6 years of age,
prancing about and dancing and looking pretty much like Barbie.

And then she said, into the mic, “Hi my name is JonBenet Ramsey, I love performing!”.
Yes.
No wonder she looked familiar.
She was the child-pageant star who was murdered, allegedly by her own parents.
And there the group was, giggling away about how cute she is(was).

maybe, perhaps, possibly, the comments left by YouTube users would’ve given it away?
“Why did God take away such a perfect angel from the world”
“RIP blessed child”

yessss.
How does one even ignore these comments?
Like, did they think its normal for such comments to be there?

did they ever see "may God keep you with amongst his angels" after a Andy Lau or Jay Chou video?
Wasn’t it the least bit odd?

so anyways,
they basically ended up showing what actually was a Tribute video to a dead girl.
High five brilliant people.
Welcome to my school.
one of the best in the world i am told.
the propaganda never ceases.

I was in a philosophy class and the lecturer made an interesting point.
In the Mahabharata (ancient Indian text, you ignoramus),
a wise man was asked:
“what is the most amazing thing about humans?”
and his reply was
“we are all going to die; but each of us thinks we are immortal.”

When one incorporates the fact that death is inevitable, and lives his life accordingly,
he is said to have a ‘meaningful’ and ‘authentic’ life.
Pretty interesting.

So you see, you can actually learn things from this glorious blog!
just dont expect too much from me.
typing that para on philosophy already gave me a migraine.

as you can see, I changed the layout of the blog.
Using my highly advanced knowledge of computers, combined with my super-powers (which I have yet to figure out),
I have gotten this sparse layout.
Good job arzish.

yeah that’s it for now.
i'll probably update more often, but with shorter posts.

much love to all those who matter.
im out.

the blog lives!

2007-09-18T11:16:00.000-07:00

a change is coming

shorter updates, more bountiful in quantity.

keep checking.

the boy wonder.

when it falls

2007-08-28T09:06:00.000-07:00

i had so much to blog about.

about my new tattoos.
about school and its idiosyncrasies.
about clubbing and movida.
about womad.
about life in general.

and then i went to soccernet.
to my utter and absolute horror and shock, antonio puerta, sevilla's midfielder, had passed away.

i saw the way he collapsed during the match against getafe.
he simply fell unconscious on the halfway line, was resuscitated, and collapsed again.
he was in critical care and sadly, passed away.
at the tender age of 22.
he was going to be a father in a month's time.
and he was at the peak of his health, a professional footballer in the primera liga.

life is so unpredictable.
dont ever take it for granted.
honestly, i dont care if anyone thinks this is emo.
stop always putting up a false front.
it really is a sad, sad event.

theres a clip of it on youtube, but i dont wanna post it.
i watched it and it really is traumatic.
honestly.

antonio puerta, my prayers are with you.
rest in peace.

bat country

2007-08-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

thank you to the powers that be.
for letting me mosh my guts and brains out,
while avenged sevenfold ripped the stage to shreds.

circle pit.
bare bodied moshing.
unholy confessions live.
a highlight of my life so far.

fluorescent adolescent

2007-07-19T10:45:00.000-07:00

i had my last injection in my knee today.
After the operation, ive had 3 awesomely painful injections to my knee.
Awesome.

its not like a tiny thin needle.
its like this huge needle which im pretty sure doubles up as some sort of ancient ninja weapon.

when I first saw the thing, I was like…that better be for a horse in some animal hospital.

And the doctor who administers it…
Hes a nice bloke and all…
But seriously
He tries to make small talk while I lie there, awaiting my death via lethal injection.

Hes like “so how is studying finance? You enjoy it? What do you think of the current stock market?”

And im there just looking at him loading up the syringe with liquids, scared to death.

My answers all come out retarded, like
“finance is similar to chemistry” or
“yes the stock market is strong…”

and then…mid-sentence, the dude jabs el needle into el knee…
the pain is phenomenal.
Primarily because this huge-ass needle scrapes past your bones to get to its target.
Uggh.

ive realized one thing throughout my enforced stay at home though.
don’t sweat the small stuff.
seriously.

In my school, everyone is obsessed with something or the other.
Its one big rat-race.
Grades.
Internships.
Connections.
Networking.
Grouping for projects.

Seriously, nobody ever takes some time off.
To just reflect on who they are, what theyre doing, etc.

Everyone is just caught up in the whirlwind of bullshit that is business school.

Sometimes, you need some time away from everything.
To get direction and focus.
Sure, I may have ‘wasted’ away 2 months of my life being at home.

Im pretty sure I had a way better holiday than most other people.
Okay I cancelled my NY trip…but theres always December for that.

And everyone takes their ability to walk for granted.
Seriously, I always did.
And then, just like that, I could not use my left leg for almost 2 months.
Try it mate, its easier said than done.

But my friends were all real understanding.

They didn’t mind chillin’ at my place on the weekends.
Club arzish was never empty, strangely enough.
And the gf.
Well she really was amazing.
She never complained bout my tantrums and my frustration.
She never said anything even though we haven’t gone out for a proper dinner for 6weeks.
And she’d buy food and come over and we’d just watch dvds
gotta show some appreciation.
Shes a special one.

So yeah
The holidays are nearly over.
Sure, it would have been cool if I had a left leg THAT WORKED.
But in all honesty
Im happy.
Life is good.
You just gotta take some time to appreciate it.

In other news..

In the most random thing ever, I was asked by a friend at 2am to write an article by the following afternoon.
I had free time (duh) and wrote about my beloved Southampton FC.
Lo and behold, 2 days later, im in the back pages of the New Paper, complete with a colour photo (thanks gf!)

Heres the link:

Thanks to all for their kind smses.
Appreciate the support people!

Heres a couple of random thoughts:

Lionel messi is amazingly talented. Its ridiculous how much talent he has.

Andriy voronin is gonna be a huge hit for Liverpool. Trust me.

As is Eduardo for arsenal.

I watched alpha dog. Timberlake can act. Movie is pretty decent.

entourage is absolutely brilliant. i love it. (thx calvin)

I almost cried when optimus prime appeared.

Live the dream is a lame show, hosted by fags.

Blender and spin are brilliant magazines. GQ is decent as well.
The local FHM and Maxim are shite.
and the local New Man is worth less than my primary 4 jotter book.

We await black Sabbath.

Im looking forward to goin to the singfest (what a gay name) day 2.
The aim is to pummel some annoying kids, while moshing to avenged sevenfold.

Facebook is the way to go.
Friendster who?

Aite thats it for now.
Much love to all those who matter.
Esp. the gf.
im out.

Clothes Off

2007-07-10T10:54:00.000-07:00

Sooooooooooooo

Have you ever wondered how it feels to not be able to use your left leg for 34 days?
Thankfully for you, the boy wonder has made it his mission to answer that pertinent question for you!

Here are some ways ive been spending my time in my room (aka Club Arzish) during this period of incapacitation

Trying to do stunts on my crutch (I can do a somersault. Ok maybe not)

Formula 1 racing with myself on my computer chair (I seem to be on a winning streak)

Trying to make my family believe I am Optimus Prime (my crutches double up as nifty robot arms)

Re-organizing my CD collection (according to weight)

Juggling pens (highlighters are a hindrance)

Counting the number of tiny paper circles in the thing below the hole-puncher (so far, im at 3)

Making my own groovy cocktails with water, ice, and more water

Practicing my moves on the dance floor (a.k.a. the space in front of my bed)

Reading inane article on wikipedia (check out the one bout the weirdest deaths recorded. Too lazy to paste the link)

Not updating my blog (the lazinessss it burnssss)

Nothing much has been up.

Transformers was a brilliant movie.
Go to hell stupid Singaporean newspaper critics.
What do you know anyways?
The rule of thumb is that if the fat critics say “it’s a horrid movie”, odds are, it’ll be great.

Ok im tired.
Gonna have to call it a night since I gotta wake up at 9am to watch brazil – uruguay.
Copa America is brilliant.

Since I cant go for my proposed concerts in NYC, dad is letting me go for all the concerts coming up here.
Black Sabbath
the Cure
Funeral for a Friend
Avenged Sevenfold (and whoever else is at the fest…)

so its not that bad I guess.

thats it for now.
thanks to all the patrons of club arzish.
appreciate the support.
especially le gf.
love to all those who matter.
im out.

hurt

2007-06-21T04:14:00.000-07:00

pain shapes me
like a deranged potter
having his way
with the malleable putty
that i am.

i try to resist
a false front i erect.
a façade, a show.
i laugh, i smile,
hiding the scars of battle.

pain grins.
a masterful opponent.
he knows each and every one
of my weaknesses.
my soft spots,
through which my insides
can be ripped out.

he bludgeons me.
i am on the wane.
my star is falling.

they try their best.
to salvage me,
to lessen the hurt.

they soothe me
they tell me i will be fine.
they tell me i will emerge victorious.
i try my best,
to believe
these white lies.
i am no fool.

pain bides his time.
a patient foe.
he picks at me,
while i try and regain
myself.

he tries new ways
to make me
rescind control.

he is the master of two realms.
one to do with the body
one to do with the mind.
he is equally adept
at ruling both.

he sees me,
resisting his attack on one front.
gleefully
he shifts his focuses
to the other.

i am weak.
i am not as strong as you think.
i am hurt.
i bleed within.
i do not recognize myself.

------------------------------------------

so im stuck at home.
for the next 4 weeks.
my summer holidays are pathetic.
and the best part.
due to some unforeseen bullshit with my knee(which i have grown to detest),
my NY trip has been cancelled.
yes.
awesome.
i have to sell my concert tix online now.
great.
explains my current state doesnt it.